Wes, trust me, you don't wanna be in the same situation as me. I was the first person to miserably fail at getting the record, and I did the mistake of not trying to get it again and now I have to live miserably for the rest of my life with the fact that I failed at getting the record. I'm like Jesus, I suffered for you so you don't have to follow the same mistakes as I did!
Joke aside, I know it's hard to keep playing when you fail a lot, I know what it feels to be unmovativated. But I'll personally make sure to watch every of your stream to help you with motivation. I definitely consider you as a great friend, and as a friend, I want you to succeed at what you want to succeed, and I know that getting 1.12m means a lot to you. If it means a lot to you, it also means a lot to me, so I'll do my best to make sure you achieve your goal ;-)